Ive said it before, ill say it again, life for me is never dull. it allways seems to be full of something! May was probably the longest month of my life.
not a lot to talk about until the end of april. the last weekend in april i walk/ran my first mini marathon. i spent months training for it and i still feel i should have trained longer and harder. I finished the 13.1 miles in 3 hours 36 minutes(if im remembering right:) not too bad, i think ill do another with a goal of 3 hours.(maybe next spring?)
first week of may, we all packed up and headed to florida for our family vacation(which included my sisters wedding) stressfull but awesome. my kids loved it, josh loved it and i think it will start a new pattern. yearly trips down to florida. :)
we got back on the 15th on the 17th my father in law(joshs step dad) passed away. this was hard on all of us. he had been battling cancer for olmost exactly a year. he was so young to die in such a way. only 53. this specific passing was probably the first one i was realy close to and it was hard on me standing by while those who loved him most cried for him. i wanted so badly to take away thier pain and be strong for them. things dont allways go as we want though. we cant take away anothers pain in grieving, but we can be there to comfort them and that is all we can do.
happy fathers day jerry, i know your in heaven tell the Father happy fathers day will ya? :) miss you.
the week after the funeral services my own father relocated from kansas to here where i live with his wife, 3 young kids and not much else. this too was a stressful situation, helping him get into a place to live and all that jaz :) its nice having him and my brother and sisters close, but i havnt realy gotten to enjoy it so much yet. i know its getting there.
so that was my may in a nutshell. crazy huh? now that the majority of stress is in the past, my body has decided its hip with anxiety attacks when i wake up. not so much fun, but its getting better as time goes by.
happy fathers day to all you dads
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
whats been going on with me
well, never a dull moment here. life is kinda crazy as usual. good news is, lilly has been sleeping so well lately! Im so glad, kids are always asleep by 9 on school nights and thats great in so many ways.
about a month ago my husband started having chest pain, after olmost a week, i insisted he see the doctor. they had him get an x-ray and found out he had a partialy colapsed lung. that has healed, but it had them wondering why it collapsed in the first place. he saw a pulmonologist and had some ct scans and we found out he has early onset emphysema. Hes only 30. come to find out, it looks as though he has a genetic dissorder called marfan syndrome. marfan syndrome is a conective tissue dissorder that effects many parts of the body including the lungs. people with marfan who smoke are at a MUCH higher risk of getting emphesema at an early age. we are currently working on quiting smoking. he is one week without smoking, but hes using patches and it seems having all that nicotine in his system is making it realy hard. I think probably harder than just quiting, which is what i have done in the past.
will keep this updated as often as i have news..
about a month ago my husband started having chest pain, after olmost a week, i insisted he see the doctor. they had him get an x-ray and found out he had a partialy colapsed lung. that has healed, but it had them wondering why it collapsed in the first place. he saw a pulmonologist and had some ct scans and we found out he has early onset emphysema. Hes only 30. come to find out, it looks as though he has a genetic dissorder called marfan syndrome. marfan syndrome is a conective tissue dissorder that effects many parts of the body including the lungs. people with marfan who smoke are at a MUCH higher risk of getting emphesema at an early age. we are currently working on quiting smoking. he is one week without smoking, but hes using patches and it seems having all that nicotine in his system is making it realy hard. I think probably harder than just quiting, which is what i have done in the past.
will keep this updated as often as i have news..
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
the weekend
the weekend goes by with a bit of bedtime cheating(at least thats how I feel when I give her melatonin). I know theres more to this whole producing melatonin stuff, but no chance to get on the puter until monday, so I just get through the weekend and the latest she went to sleep was 10:30. not bad, but as I said, it just feels like cheating, so not great either. Im also concerned about the long term effects of taking something the body produces naturaly, eventually, the body will probably stop making it because it doesnt think it needs to. But, im not worried about the effects of taking it occasionally, so no big deal realy.
Lilly doesnt sleep!
ok, so this is taking you all back a bit.
Lilly, my 4 yr old, has never realy sleapt well, when she was younger(a baby) she would scream and cry for hours before bed. the dr said she was just trying to be awake to spend alone time with me. ok, well whatever, shes a baby, babys dont sleep well sometimes, so i deal with it. we move, her sleep problems improve a little, she goes to sleep better, but wakes up screaming in middle of night. maybe nightmares i think... doesnt seem to be the case. moving on to later(by this time shes 2 1/2... she stops waking at night and starts staying up later, and later...
from july 2010 to last week, she gets so out of whack on sleep that i feel like im drowning in my own sleep deprived state. she stays up until 12-2 am, then I get up at 2 with my husband, go back to bed by 3 or so after he leaves for work, then im back up again at 6 to get kids ready for school. lilly gets up at 8am and the day goes on like the day before. its madness and it doesnt improve so life is chaos and im over the whole bedtime situation.
talking about my problem after church 2 weeks ago, some friends recomended i try melatonin supliments at bed time. i asked questions and it seemed a good idea to give it a try, so I called the dr and she said, sure, go ahead and try the supliments on her. so I tried it last thursday, it worked well, didnt seem to have any adverse effects, but it worked so fast, i was concerned about side effects, so I did my research thing and found that melatonin is naturaly produced when its dark. the eyes percieve darkness and the brain produces melatonin... interesting right?
so tyhe next night(jan 14) I dont give her any melatonin, and instead I attempt to stimulate her natural melatoning production by turning off the brighter lights and tv at 7pm. i give her a warm candle lit bath and read her a story in bed, she falls asleep after 2 1/2 horse of the bedtime stuff, which means she fell asleep at 9:30... not bad, but not GREAT either... it took a lot of work for me to get this result....
Lilly, my 4 yr old, has never realy sleapt well, when she was younger(a baby) she would scream and cry for hours before bed. the dr said she was just trying to be awake to spend alone time with me. ok, well whatever, shes a baby, babys dont sleep well sometimes, so i deal with it. we move, her sleep problems improve a little, she goes to sleep better, but wakes up screaming in middle of night. maybe nightmares i think... doesnt seem to be the case. moving on to later(by this time shes 2 1/2... she stops waking at night and starts staying up later, and later...
from july 2010 to last week, she gets so out of whack on sleep that i feel like im drowning in my own sleep deprived state. she stays up until 12-2 am, then I get up at 2 with my husband, go back to bed by 3 or so after he leaves for work, then im back up again at 6 to get kids ready for school. lilly gets up at 8am and the day goes on like the day before. its madness and it doesnt improve so life is chaos and im over the whole bedtime situation.
talking about my problem after church 2 weeks ago, some friends recomended i try melatonin supliments at bed time. i asked questions and it seemed a good idea to give it a try, so I called the dr and she said, sure, go ahead and try the supliments on her. so I tried it last thursday, it worked well, didnt seem to have any adverse effects, but it worked so fast, i was concerned about side effects, so I did my research thing and found that melatonin is naturaly produced when its dark. the eyes percieve darkness and the brain produces melatonin... interesting right?
so tyhe next night(jan 14) I dont give her any melatonin, and instead I attempt to stimulate her natural melatoning production by turning off the brighter lights and tv at 7pm. i give her a warm candle lit bath and read her a story in bed, she falls asleep after 2 1/2 horse of the bedtime stuff, which means she fell asleep at 9:30... not bad, but not GREAT either... it took a lot of work for me to get this result....
its been forever!
ok, so I know its been forever and ever since I have posted an update to this blog. I was olmost tempted to start a new one instead of updating this one, since im one of those people who actually love change(which is probably why it doesnt bother me to leave some things unfinished), but i decided to just renew this one so-to speak. I will be getting a laptop this week, which will increase the amount of access i have to a computer a lot.
I realy have just been going along with life for a while and didnt realy feel there was much to share, also didnt realy feel like writing much, not even in my writing journal, so that is why i have neglected this blog so much.
however, i have some new interesting stuff i want to share about some issues with my daughter and sleep. sorry if it gets to looking like a medical journal in here, but that is what im doing these days and ive realy found some good stuff maybe others could find useful.
I realy have just been going along with life for a while and didnt realy feel there was much to share, also didnt realy feel like writing much, not even in my writing journal, so that is why i have neglected this blog so much.
however, i have some new interesting stuff i want to share about some issues with my daughter and sleep. sorry if it gets to looking like a medical journal in here, but that is what im doing these days and ive realy found some good stuff maybe others could find useful.
Friday, July 9, 2010
when you feel lost
like you cant find your way
to the place you know you need to be
the only place that makes you whole
let go of what your holding on to
let go of what you know
the path has grown over
the way is not clearly marked
you cling to what you know
your afraid of the unknown
afraid of being lost and alone
the more you search
the longer your lost
the more you seek
the less you find
let it go, let it be
leave it behind you
seek only Him
and be free
like you cant find your way
to the place you know you need to be
the only place that makes you whole
let go of what your holding on to
let go of what you know
the path has grown over
the way is not clearly marked
you cling to what you know
your afraid of the unknown
afraid of being lost and alone
the more you search
the longer your lost
the more you seek
the less you find
let it go, let it be
leave it behind you
seek only Him
and be free
Friday, June 11, 2010
another tree hugger is born:)
I couldnt think of anything better...
My husband and I had 4 great days in Florida, where we swam in the ocian, took in all the trees and birds we dont get to see where we live, we played in the sand, walked around the tiki bars, and just plain old enjoyed ourselves and the place around us.
This was my 3rd time in florida, but Joshs first. I watched as the wonder of Floridas beauty, and the magic that is Gods creation, worked itself into my husbands heart. He is sold. I also watched as he picked up the trash left on the streets and in beach parking lots left by careless partiers and tourists. He has a completely new respect for those who put in the effort to keep thier own trash off the ground, and to those who take the extra step to clean up others mess too.
Now, we both have even more concern about whats going on in the gulf. We were both saddened by it before, but now its magnefied. We have more respect for the wildlife being affected. What will happen to these beautiful, even magical vacation places? What happened to michigan when thier #1 production product was no longer in high demand? When these gulf beaches are covered in tar, the fishing boats cant go out, the wildlife diminishes, what will happen to thier ecconomic status? Who wants to go vacationing in such a depressing environment? the fishing communities will be devistated.
No matter who you are or where you live, this is not good! Remember how for more than a year after hurricane katrina, people would say low numbers and high prices in certain foods was because of hurricane katrina? immagine the ecconomic impact of this oil spill! Not one person in this country will go unaffected in some way. High prices, lost jobs, emotional impact, this country cannot handle much more ecconomic demoralization, which is exactly what is happening!
ok, so I just had to get that out.
have a great day, week, month... cant b sure when ill get in here again:)
My husband and I had 4 great days in Florida, where we swam in the ocian, took in all the trees and birds we dont get to see where we live, we played in the sand, walked around the tiki bars, and just plain old enjoyed ourselves and the place around us.
This was my 3rd time in florida, but Joshs first. I watched as the wonder of Floridas beauty, and the magic that is Gods creation, worked itself into my husbands heart. He is sold. I also watched as he picked up the trash left on the streets and in beach parking lots left by careless partiers and tourists. He has a completely new respect for those who put in the effort to keep thier own trash off the ground, and to those who take the extra step to clean up others mess too.
Now, we both have even more concern about whats going on in the gulf. We were both saddened by it before, but now its magnefied. We have more respect for the wildlife being affected. What will happen to these beautiful, even magical vacation places? What happened to michigan when thier #1 production product was no longer in high demand? When these gulf beaches are covered in tar, the fishing boats cant go out, the wildlife diminishes, what will happen to thier ecconomic status? Who wants to go vacationing in such a depressing environment? the fishing communities will be devistated.
No matter who you are or where you live, this is not good! Remember how for more than a year after hurricane katrina, people would say low numbers and high prices in certain foods was because of hurricane katrina? immagine the ecconomic impact of this oil spill! Not one person in this country will go unaffected in some way. High prices, lost jobs, emotional impact, this country cannot handle much more ecconomic demoralization, which is exactly what is happening!
ok, so I just had to get that out.
have a great day, week, month... cant b sure when ill get in here again:)
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